Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Happy Fourth of July!

First, I want to thank everyone who left a comment and who emailed me - all your encouragement and prayers are appreciated and needed!  As the shock of my husband's death is wearing off and the reality of him not being here is setting in, I find myself more depressed, confused, and tired from lack of sleep.  I'm devastated and so very sad.  Last night I had a dream that he had "come back" to me, and even though it felt great in my dream, I was more sad when I woke up because I know he'll never come back.  I truly love him and I know it will take time to heal this deep wound.

Second (and on a lighter note), I want to thank my upline, my fellow demonstrators (sidelines), and some customers for helping me go to Stampin' Up's Convention later this month!  I didn't have any life insurance on my husband and he was the only one working since I take care of my mother, so there was no money for me to be able to go to Convention.  But, thanks to all these wonderful ladies (and gentleman) chipping in, I am now able to attend.  I still wasn't sure if I should go, but my group grief counselor thought it would be helpful for me to get out of the house where my husband passed away.  So, I'll be sharing my swap cards with you as soon as I get them made,  which better be fast!

Finally, I want to wish everyone a Happy 4th of July!  I love this country and appreciate all the opportunity I've been able to have here.  So, God Bless to you and your families and I hope you have a fun and safe holiday celebration today! 


  1. After seeing your touching post I had to take a minute to say, at the age of 47 (11 years ago) I experienced the same loss. There are no words to express how very sorry I am for your loss and to tell you time does heal. You never forget but you do heal. I believe your counselor is right, you need to live life and I hope to meet you at my 1st convention. Hugs.

  2. Maria you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, God will help you through this difficult time. Your love for your husband will help you to take each day and make it better. You are a wonderful, beautiful person and just know that you have a heart of gold. I am very happy that you are going to Convention its what your dear husband would want for you to do. Remember you are not alone. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with all who visit your blog. Rachel

  3. Maria, I'm so happy to hear that you will be able to go to Convention. That will be a wonderful healing tool for you I'm sure, spending time with people that love you and share the same excitement. God bless you as you heal and know that people care for you and your road ahead.


  4. Maria, I am so sorry to read of the loss of your husband. I will be praying for you through your time of grief. It is great that you have such caring friends that are making it possible for you to attend convention. Have a great time and trust this will help lighten your load some to be around people who love to stamp as you do.