Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Happy Fourth of July!

First, I want to thank everyone who left a comment and who emailed me - all your encouragement and prayers are appreciated and needed!  As the shock of my husband's death is wearing off and the reality of him not being here is setting in, I find myself more depressed, confused, and tired from lack of sleep.  I'm devastated and so very sad.  Last night I had a dream that he had "come back" to me, and even though it felt great in my dream, I was more sad when I woke up because I know he'll never come back.  I truly love him and I know it will take time to heal this deep wound.

Second (and on a lighter note), I want to thank my upline, my fellow demonstrators (sidelines), and some customers for helping me go to Stampin' Up's Convention later this month!  I didn't have any life insurance on my husband and he was the only one working since I take care of my mother, so there was no money for me to be able to go to Convention.  But, thanks to all these wonderful ladies (and gentleman) chipping in, I am now able to attend.  I still wasn't sure if I should go, but my group grief counselor thought it would be helpful for me to get out of the house where my husband passed away.  So, I'll be sharing my swap cards with you as soon as I get them made,  which better be fast!

Finally, I want to wish everyone a Happy 4th of July!  I love this country and appreciate all the opportunity I've been able to have here.  So, God Bless to you and your families and I hope you have a fun and safe holiday celebration today!